Contemplations on healing and meditation
Exploring inner healing
Inner healing begins with learning how to relax. You'll find that you need to relax very deeply. Deep relaxation helps to
counteract the effects of chronic self-sustaining stress.
To counteract the effects of deeply rooted grasping, you need to learn
to let go. You need to learn new ways to watch yourself. When you find yourself craving something, or
being drawn to a particular thought or feeling, then say to yourself
that you will let go of them, loosen yourself from even the most subtle
attachment to anything you sense.
To counteract the effects of deeply rooted aversions, you need to learn
to accept. When you feel the urge to push something out of your
thoughts or emotions, or when you feel some mental or emotional
discomfort, tell yourself to accept them instead of continuing to push
them out of your minds.
Exploring various techniques of inner healing will broaden your
understanding of self and others. Not only will you gain better insight
into the workings of the world, you will also begin to sense and
explore the web of
interconnectedness and spiritual energies. You will find greater value
in exploring these things for yourself, and become free of the habits
of thought and emotion that limit your explorations.
The nature of chronic self-sustaining stress - the originator of human destructiveness
Grasping and clinging - clutching to something you feel satisfies your needs.
Aversion and suppression - pushing away something you feel threatened your needs.
Grasping tends to stimulate the fight-responses.
Aversion tends to stimulate the flight responses.
Persistent stimulation of your animal brain will lead to overreaction
of the fight-or-flight responses. The fewer breaks you get from this
stimulation, then your fight-or-flight responses become increasingly
stressed.
Under the influence of grasping and aversion, the mind and emotions are
shaped by the experiences of pleasure and pain, comfort and insecurity.
The mind is conditioned - develops habitual patterns of activity.
Under the influence of the many stressors in our lives - patterns of
thought and emotions become their own sources of stress. This is how
internally generated stress escalates.
Put all these together, and you can account for the many varieties of stress.
Patterns of thoughts and emotions
If you watch your thoughts you will realize that they frequently repeat
themselves. A particular thought sequence will
reoccur frequently - maybe once a week, once a day or once an hour. You
will often feel that these recycled thoughts are new - each and
every
time it appears - and you rarely have awareness of their
repetitiveness. There's nothing wrong with this in itself. It simply
indicates that patterns of thought are somewhat habitual. They are a
learned
response within the mind, a conditioned activity.
Although a reoccurring pattern of
thought is not bad - attachment to it creates problems for our
inner lives. Attachment to these patterns of thought creates imbalance
and leads to over-reaction, which in turn gives rise to the hindering
emotions of fear, hate, rage, aggression, ambition, greed. The same is
true for patterns of thought that we deliberately or unconsciously try
to avoid.
Just as there are patterns of thoughts, there are also patterns of
moods, feelings, emotions. There are patterns of body sensations and
patterns of behavior. There's a pattern in the feeling or sense of
identity - the ego - whether it's the ego of the body, the ego of the
mind, or the tribal/national/cultural ego.
Sensing the fabric of our inner being
At each moment, there are huge numbers of internal processes that add
up to the
way we feel, and think. The way these processes operate, the
ways they cooperate, counteract each other, and interact - defines the
web of our inner being - the structure of the self. These collections
of patterns change from moment to
moment, day to day, event to event. Some of these patterns reoccur. As
we shift
our goals, desires, ambitions - we alter the relative importance of
these patterns.
As we become more immersed in our attachments and aversions, these
patterns become more rigid, more limiting. The fabric of our inner being
stagnates and decays.
When we become more immersed in attachments to these patterns, our
souls increasingly feel as if they are lost, disturbed, isolated,
dissatisfied, anxious. It becomes harder to see that our minds have
become attached to habitual patterns of
thought-emotion-memory-body-behaviors.
These habitual patterns go hand
in hand with the inner forces of grasping and aversion. Attachment and
aversion to these habits of
mind and emotion are the roots of the illness of chronic
self-sustaining
inwardly generated stress. These stress patterns are sustained by a
variety of influences
- including physical, social,
cultural, religious, emotional, mental.
At the end of all this, the brain is constantly being exposed to this
stagnation of the web of inner being. Our soul senses that this
stagnation is somehow dangerous. It's as if the brain is being
constantly exposed to a low level danger - and under these
circumstances the animal brain becomes imbalanced, over-reactive,
eventually hyper-stimulated. It makes people quick to anger, always
ready to be afraid, always aggressive - without even realizing it.
The consequences of chronic self-sustaining stressful arousal of your inner animal
We are all suffering from chronic arousal of the
fight/flight/freeze responses - our basic animal survival drives. Our
brain has been conditioned to constantly arouse it's own inner animal nature,
and the consequences of this constant self-arousal include:-
- with frequent exposure to stressful situations - it takes less
stimulation to pump up your survival instincts - meaning that you'll get angry for little or no reason - adding fuel to the
fire of stress
- the animal brain becomes constantly tense, afraid - creating a
sense of inner pressure, agitation, irritability - with time, it
overreacts even to the smallest stressors
- with continuous stress - you develop habits of thought and emotion that try to deal with the resulting constant inner pressure -
- you develop habits to suppress those
thoughts and emotions that you believe bring some kind of pain
- you
also cling to thoughts/emotions that you believe will bring satisfaction
- you shut down parts of your mind and emotions
- you become inattentive to your inner life, you seek distraction in any form
- you become less sensitive, more aggressive, more
dominating, or more submissive - you become absorbed in your
ambitions and anxieties
- your memory deteriorates - your memory begins to register only
those events that are super-charged with emotion - ignoring other events
- a long term consequence is that you become attached to any
activity, belief system or social/cultural group that helps you shut
out this inner pressure of chronic self-sustaining stress
Understanding how to counteract chronic self-sustaining stress
There are many ways of learning to overcome the effects of chronic
stress - the "relaxation response", calming exercises and meditation
techniques. Here you will learn how we use a variety of techniques, and
we offer you a simple insight that helps you discover which techniques
are best for you and how the suitability of these techniques varies
over time and with changes in your circumstances.
The first thing you need to do is gain some insight into these things:-
- the nature of the brain and it's stress mechanisms
- understanding when stress becomes bad
- learning how to see for yourself how different types of mental and emotional activity interact
- learning how unhealthy entanglements arise between mind, emotion and your animal instincts
- learning how destructive emotions are constantly seeking
opportunities to control you, fueled by the primal inner forces of
clinging and aversion
You also need to learn how to enter the state of inner healing. There are three basic steps that you repeat:-
- sensing your current state of arousal, state of emotion and
modes of thought and the influence of habitual patterns of emotion
and thought
- learning to gently push yourself towards a calmer state - using a
variety of techniques, including breathing exercises, inner sense
centering (mantra
- learning to deal with emotions, thoughts and sensations that interrupt the calming process
These three steps form the basic framework for discovering the type
of meditation that is best suited to your current needs. You also will
learn how to recognize the conditions in which meditation should be
avoided, because sometimes the level of inner arousal and agitation is
so high, that the mind will be unable to settle down. For these
situations, you will learn of several methods to use when the mind and
emotions seemed to be locked in self-agitation, including:-
- the use of relaxing, light trance-inducing sounds
- prayer, suggestion
- chanting
- simple exercises that nudge the mind and emotions out of this
locked state - for example, simple movements of the neck, eye, hand
- acupressure and tapping
- bio-feedback training
If you continue to try to calm down while your mind is
over-stimulated, then you run the risk of making it harder for yourself
to relax in the future - because your mind begins to associate the
relaxation technique with agitated states of mind and emotion -
thereby creating even more problems for
yourself. Some research into meditation techniques does show potential
for creation of new problems when people regularly practice meditation
twice a day - we need to develop ways of coming to a
better understanding of these processes - and need to learn how to
be more flexible, adaptive, and creative. For those of you who are
deeply locked in stagnation of your Web of Being - you may find it
better to practice
meditative techniques on rare occasions. Or, you might need to
take a long vacation and learn to relax, very very deeply.
So ... let's begin exploring this new framework for inner healing ...
The Inner Animal and our Spacious Mind
Science is discovering how the basic survival drives are rooted in the
limbic region of the brain, and to some extent science can show how
emotions, memory and thought relate to these basic survival drives.
Here we combine some of this scientific information with insights from
meditation to provide a map of these inner processes.
The limbic region of the brain is a collection of several distinct
regions of the brain - including the amygdala, the
hippocampus, the hypothalamus. These are the parts of the brain that
are home to the basic survival instincts, emotions, memory formation,
memory
retrieval, recognition, and play key roles in the front-line response
to sensory
perceptions. This is our "animal brain". The human animal brain is
similar in function and organization to that of many other animals. The
main differences are in size, complexity, types of interconnections.
There are some differences in neurochemistry, but in general there are
more similarities than differences.
One major difference between human and animal brains is that we
humans have a larger cortex, with much greater complexity of
interconnection and more capacity for explorative and organizational
kinds of thought. In animals the lack of complexity in the cortex tends
to restrict the range, complexity and level of detail that the animal
mind can handle. The cortex deals with more integrative levels of
behavior - coordinating perception and action, altering the level of
alertness. In animals the cortex is mostly responding to the impulses
from the limbic brain. This is also true for many humans. So although
we have the potential to be more expansive, creative, intelligent, and
explorative that animals - we often are not.
We can learn a
lot about ourselves by thinking of the limbic brain and the basic parts of the cortex as our "inner
animal". Also think of the larger cortex as the "bigger mind" that can
roam beyond the boundaries of the mostly reactive, conditioned behavior
of the animal brain. The bigger mind does things like organize,
analyze, create, invent, make art and music, use the imagination,
explore models of the world, create new kinds of awareness and inner
sense. We could call this Brain Version 2.0. But we'll call this analytical and creative part of us the Spacious Mind.
Nature has provided all life forms with a basic survival training
course. Over millions of years, species have learned how to avoid
becoming lunch, how to find lunch, how to make existence more fun, and
how to have fun with other creatures. An important part of all this is
the fight-flight-freeze responses, in addition to sexual and hunger
drives. There are also drives for cooperation and compassion that are
too easily overlooked these days.
Scientific exploration into the functions of the brain has shown that
there are good and bad sides to the fight-flight-freeze responses.
These survival instincts have been programmed into the brain during the
long evolution of life. The fight-flight-freeze responses are a small
part of the overall functions of the brain. As the brain becomes larger
and more complex, it can store and process more information, more details. The
brain is able to create and organize a network of memories that form
the basis of our understanding of the world. This network of memories
is the main ingredient of our inner abstract model of the world. As we
become more capable of working with abstract thought, our world model
incorporates more complex and detailed ideas. Also - the higher
mind sets goals for our lives. For the animal, these
goals are fairly predictable - seek food and company, avoid predators
and other threats, find a safe place to rest, and so on. The human
brain shares these same goals - but is also capable of developing goals based on more complex and abstract
perceptions - the abstractions and details that are part of
the complex human world model.
However, under the influence of those self-sustaining stressors, we
distort our understanding of the world, and negative emotions more
easily take
control of our inner lives. Under these circumstances, our goals can
become disorganized, devoid of wisdom, destructive, aggressive, mean and
cruel. Most of us have a tendency to be led by this (often unwittingly)
destructive matrix of goals. In this state, the survival responses
become aroused more easily and more frequently. Frequent arousal of
these responses
programs the animal brain to become more aggressive, less sensitive,
more over-reactive. This is the basic mechanism of self-limiting
programming in the brain - the root of the entanglements. At each step
in the emergence of these entanglements, the basic forces of grasping
and aversion add fuel to the impact of the stressors to each iteration
of the process.
Some measurements on neural pathways seem to indicate that there are
substantially more
neural connections from the animal brain to the cortex than the other
way. It's not clear that they are one-way connections - there may be
two-way influences. There are also indications that parts of the cortex
- particularly the
parts that play a role in setting goals and planning - can exert a
strong influence on the animal brain. From meditation you may discover
that resonances occur between the workings of the animal brain and the
spacious mind. These resonances may be related to these neural pathways
between the different regions of the brain.
When self-sustaining stressors are dominant (as is the case with most
of us) these resonances tend to be destructive - leading to
fragmentation, inner conflict, friction between the inner animal and
the spacious mind. These self-sustaining stressors and the resulting
effects are referred to as the "entanglements". These entanglements
lead to fear, rage, hate, aggression, violence and war. When we practice
inner and spiritual healing, these resonances tend to become more
integrative, unifying, cooperative.
To counteract the entanglements we need to do these things:-
- undo the effects of self-sustained stressors on the basic
survival and emotional drives of the animal brain - this is done by
learning to deeply relax
- nurture a friendly and peaceful cooperation between the animal
mind and the spacious mind - working to overcome friction between
abstract goals and animal drives
- redirect the goal-setting functions of the spacious mind
towards exploration - spiritual, inner and outer - exploration of the
ways in
which all life is interconnected, developing new forms of awareness and
sensitivity, new ways of using the mind
- lay down the right kind of "fertilizer" that nurtures inner healing and the spirit of exploration:-
- develop discipline rooted in compassion, kindness, forgiveness, openness, generosity, kindness
- develop the disciplines of study, research, studying scientific methods of development of our world model
- learning to understand how people become destructive, deceptive, manipulative and stuck in the entanglements
Compassion is part of the survival matrix
The most often studied feelings associated with the basic survival
drives
are fear, hunger, flight. Humans have created a culture that celebrates
competitiveness, believing (wrongly so) that these basic survival
drives are the magic ingredients that have led us to becoming the
dominant and most inventive and successful species. We tend to believe
that these survival instincts are the keys to handling our self-made
competitive scenarios. Again this is simply an outcome of our
culture
of conflict - we are taught to go along with this competitive game plan
of our culture - and are taught that to succeed with this game plan, we
simply have to be more competitive, more aggressive.
In addition to those basic survival drives, animals are capable of caring and compassion, empathy and sorrow. The drive toward
cooperation, sharing, compassion are also part of the survival matrix. So too are curiosity, the impulse to explore.
There are many similarities between humans and animals. Humans have an
animal core. The differences are in the peripheral details of the human
mind.